Almost End of School Regret?

Eh seems like the more i realise that im actually doing the HSC and that this is my last year of school...the more i start having regrets about my school life.

I'm not exactly outgoing...iv pretty much stuck to the same group of friends since grade 1 (which is great i kno xD)
but somehow i think i should'v talked to more ppl (as in other different ppl), taken more risks....
O GOD NO O.O I sound like my english teacher X.X all that time saying "u should take risks" n im like yeh yeh watever *daze off* n now im saying the same thing they told me TT.TT

Well yeh...it's like now i realise uni n the great big world of responsibility r just around the corner n it makes me think...if the responsibility is supposed to start now, that means my school life before was supposed to be the fun carefree part of my life BUT I WASTED THAT WITH SCHOOL WORK!

I'v said this quite a bit lately but life so far has just been about work....we go to school and work, go home and do homework, talk about homework (seriously o.O even during lunch and do homework during lunch too...ah 4U), take a break from work. The focus of everything is work...n as my friend said it's probably because the meaning of life is work lol work is inevitable...but even if it is inevitable it shouldn't b the focus of a person's life and atm im thinking mayb friends should'v been the focus of my school life.

I haven't been allowed out much so I don't get to spend much time just hanging out with friends. We see each other at school but it isn't the same coz - like i mentioned - we talk about work -.~"
Also, I only have one group of friends. I mean everyone has friends outside of school, other ppl they're close with n can go do activities with, ppl from other schools or church groups or whatev.....i don't....just school friends...im so antisocial ._.

You'd think this last year should b my chance to make the most of school but noooo this is HSC year so really ur supposed to b working harder! bleh how evil....guess it could sound like im complaining that the friends i hav already rn't enough but im not...it's more about how i don't talk to other ppl. Well i'v tried in English Ext classes but it always feels awkward...
my sis says i should just say what i want n not worry what other ppl think but that's really hard for me! Sometimes i think i think too much x.x (hehe i used think in that sentence, how ironic) Guess I have my whole life to work on that...

Hmm wrote an essay on something which is probably really silly...
O well...thought i should write something thoughtful instead of just "what i did recently"
even if it is my sad thoughts about how i think i don't have enough friends....blehh....
feeling kinda down but will probably get over it...
-=juLz=-

Guitar Hero and Co.

Well this is a post at the request of my sis
We recently got Guitar Hero on DS n she absolutely rocks at it o.o
She got a score of 200000+ and made a record of 400+ strokes in a row
Hehe it's only got a couple of songs we know (all the small things n all star)
and it's only got 25 songs which is pretty sad...but it's better than nothing.
Plus we bought it for only $45!! how good is that?! considering some places sold it for $100 So that's how our christmas money was spent

In other news I'm doing homework! YAY! congrats to me~
Done very little though. At the beginning of this year *Happy New Year btw* I realised
Thrs only 28 days till school! O.O n i had/still have a tonne of work to do....so now im slightly stressed...

I've also done work on my manga~ yay! I still like the idea even after so many weeks which is good :D I would'v given up by now already. Thing is i don't think im finishing it these hols...too much to do (i.e. drawing then inking then scanning n adding tones etc) and I should do my homework. But working on it a bit every day like this is pretty good too (done about 4 pages) I think I may b getting over my bad habit of pressing really hard when i draw! YAY!

Well i think i should stop there n get to my art hw
Cya~

Finally...

Ahahaha I finally did some work today! (just wanted to celebrate that fact with a blog)
I've been really lazy with my holiday work >.>
But today I did some English! looking at my 2nd related text.
Sorry jess...think im going with The Arrival instead of The Lost Thing =[

I REALLY should work on my animation...that thing is bound to pile up n crush me later on
Now I'm thinking this manga idea may not have been so good..since i have so much work I SHOULD b doing instead!! ARGH! Somehow I must find a balance!

When I work on the manga...doesn't feel like im wasting time...seems like im actually working.
Except then I did English today n I started getting a headache...kinda like...my brain was actually working for the first time in a few weeks n it was having a hard time.
LOL! sounds like i got really dumb after only 2 weeks of holidays!
The point being...even though manga writing seems like work...mayb it isn't the type of work I'd like to do in the long term. I kind of liked the feeling of my brain being challenged...
Sounds weird...Aftermath of the brain headache i guess...

Well cya! (another long entry...)

Real First Blog Entry

Ok...so that other one was just to start off.
Kept getting bugged to make a blog so I made one but cbb to do it properly at the time.
NOW THE BLOGGING BEGINS~

I don't know how to work HTML so I can't make this thing pretty but this is good enough.
One day I'll probably learn how to do HTML but yet again...i cbb atm

I'm working on my one shot manga atm~!
I wanted to practice my drawing skills n so on so I decided to write one these holidays...30 pages
Story line is nothing special...pretty much generic fun-fun shoujo
but I feel like my drawing is getting better :D and that i might actually finish it these hols!
Usually when I think of a project like this...i get bored of it quickly n it never gets finished but I'm still pretty enthusiastic about it XP

Ahh well that's enough for one post..don't want to make this an essay!
(since we already have to write one for english =.=")

So this is blogging...

Happy now, Jess?